BitterCoast

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Empty by BitterCoast, literature

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Empty

Sadness crept within my eyes, Thoughts bleed into hopelessness Not knowing where to turn, Where to go, where to hide Silent whispering in my mind, Saying I'm not good enough No more am I interested, In daily life, and friends I let myself down, And then I wonder Why can't I do right, Within my life today Going jogging, Or writing a poem like this Helps me deal with my struggles, And swaying depression What causes this in our lives, Stress, college life, or maybe relationships Well it past only to come again, Like the drifting wind I feel alone, and slightly lost, But I won't give up It may be dark here, But at least the

Withheld by BitterCoast, literature

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Withheld

Tension grips my lungs, As I fight for my breath Sweaty hands try, But to hold on, they fail Tired eyes dart side to side, Looking for some lost hope My breathing becomes shorter, As I feel this weight upon my chest Fear latches onto me, And my fingers start to tremble My thoughts become crowded, As a shadow claims my vision Slowly I release my hold, My hold on reality Then finally I come to peace, And rest evermore

Never Run by BitterCoast, literature

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Never Run

manipulating embrace of secret dreams as I recall that haunting I see beneath my broken stare the dark itself screams at me as it surround my bleeding heart the throbbing shadows produce a soft whisper and like a ghost it goes without vision for the growl speaks under my skin trust no one you fool it breathes in my moment I come to know perhaps love lesser then death at times and I smile

Your Fictitious Eyes by BitterCoast, literature

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Your Fictitious Eyes

Frustrated with your explanations, My tolerance lessens For if you don't soon decide, My interest well deviate Don't cite me you fool, For you are no better I've tried so hard to show, That I do care But still you say you need evidence, That you need to be 100% clear Damit I'm tired of waiting, I think I might just move on I feel like I'm wasting my breath, When I explain where I stand You say you're afraid of commitment, Afraid you'll get hurt It's not like I don't feel the same, I've been in there before But if you never give it a chance, You'll get nowhere The way I see it, Every girl you'll scare away For every one y

Multiple Reason by BitterCoast, literature

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Multiple Reason

Love's poison dart gone struck yonder, Wandered downtown gravel, Skipped me all together, thus it seems Clammy hands and a horse throat, High spirits and thumping hearts, Those around start of these It's in flight thru the air, And shows in pairs of soft eyes In time it feels like quicksilver, Reaching everywhere, but to me There was one soul, Who was fond of myself, But not me of him For it doesn't all go both ways And sometimes I wonder, How you know of such What if I did grow fond, Of someone I've known

Fearful Night by BitterCoast, literature

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Fearful Night

It's dark, dead black Your sweaty hands clutch the sword, You know that you are not alone here It has become quiet, too quiet The only sound you hear is your heart, Beating faster and faster Sweat drops and rolls down your armor In the distance you hear a sound, Like claws tapping on the marble floor Then you realize it's moving, but where? Tap, tap, tap, crash! You whip around towards the noise, But cannot see for the darkness runs deep Silence steps in again, But now a second heart beat sounds You feel it's warm breath touch your face, Forward metal flies, like cracking a whip You swing in front cutting the air, Nothing, b

Expectant Hands by BitterCoast, literature

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Expectant Hands

I feel as though no one cares, About me, just themselves alone Some friends say they do, But who knows what their thinking Trying to be tough, I put on an image, And even my soul feels icy cold Everything seems to creep up on me, And I get overwhelmed on a daily bases Searching for a source of joy, I trudge on, knowing there's hope, somewhere My success is lessening, And my smile has runaway I feel my death like state and blacking eyes, Are becoming more real But only God knows my heart is still tender, Longing for human love, from another My feelings scream for freedom, I want to express them towards someone, But of whom, I

All Not Secure by BitterCoast, literature

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All Not Secure

Gap Negotiator Love's bitter tongue hath said much Gasping eyes ahold Smooth pen, ruff paper I feel Every fiber through rapids My breath defying I've swallowed much in my thoughts Another yawn fails No spotlight here in my world I must write, for I feel lost Foolish hearts of ours I wish I knew of lately Now disconnected I don't laugh at misfortune My bleeding heart fights idle Why I even try Sometimes I surely wander That placid voice calls Shouldn't I just plug my ears Would it make things easier Where lurking things fight I channel from the unknown That's all I can say Halfway from my eye to ear I will never get it

Free Parking by BitterCoast, literature

High Above by BitterCoast, literature

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High Above

Snow capped mountains white Stabbing the clouds they will stand Cold and dreadful like You will try and climb Bitter frost clings to your soul Frozen flakes fall slow Danger shows in spite Through slippery rocks and ice Black holes also lay These black holes hidden Waiting to swallow your feet They grow very deep Take care now my love Do not wander very far Hidden things there be For something far great Greater then the endless black Will take thee in sleep The cold, soft may be Will grow greater by nightfall Shivering your heart For now I leave you So remember my words please They will always be

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Light Beyond Darkness by BitterCoast, literature

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Light Beyond Darkness

There's a dark shadow, Lurking within my blacken soul, And not lacking in others as well. After all we're only human, Trying to make something out of this sinful world, That has sucked us clean from our hopes and dreams. Clawing at our hearts to rob us of love, That we long for throughout our lives, This hand that has blinded me. Though it can rip our flesh and hiatus our breath, It can't touch our love for the one and only Savior, He has created a way for us to be free. Free from our bondage unto this dieing earth, If we don't know him we are doomed, To a slow and painful death. For there is far no worse, Then the absence of

Lonely Heart by BitterCoast, literature

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Lonely Heart

They have all passed on All but few were left behind My living soul grieves They've left me alone What shall I do with my breath My thoughts collected What's the point living If you're now living alone I'm wary and torn Love is great, love's kind Love lesser then death at times Short breaths reach my lips Feelings you can't bear The longest day it will seem I tread on, tread on

Growing Wrath by BitterCoast, literature

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Growing Wrath

Time lust and shadow driven, My eyes grow cold. Short breaths reach my lips, And my teeth glare. I do not feel well, In fact I'm in depression. The longest day it seems, Spreads throughout the week. I am becoming ungrateful, And easily ruffled. At any moment, I could snap, I fear. For those who anger me, I hope they understand. I am not myself, In this growing wrath. I bear a weight, That I would like to release. Sweat drops as I inhale, And my fist curls. I try to clam myself, As my desire grows. I think I'll be fine, If no one temps me.

Gray Haze by BitterCoast, literature

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Gray Haze

"Be thou my vision, Into silence and shallow doubt. Bestow on me courage, Of when Kings go forth. And seek lasting wisdom, For the task at hand." The words stumble into mind. As my eyes glaze, listening into the shadows, Morning mist rises, to mingle with swirling dust. I took cover behind rock, Still steaming from the last attack. To the right a tree stood burnt from fury, And dripping of sweat, as sure as I. Torn clothing hung from my caules skin, Caked with mud and dried blood. Dirt and gravel had crawled, stinging into an open wound, Lashed on my side. One hand grasped on it in pain, The other on a bow in revenge. A bea

Intense World by BitterCoast, literature

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Intense World

This world so intense, So hard to understand. Trying to see through your deep eyes, Which only you can see alone. To die from exposure, Or to fall into misfortune. Deeply rooted in turmoil, I am afflicted by a terrible plague. In this continued tormenting, I wish I knew my murderer. Avoiding to slay myself, I must understand the risk I take. Confronting my feelings I must try, For engaged in love's web I find myself.

No Dreams Tonight by BitterCoast, literature

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No Dreams Tonight

Wake up! My mind sluggish and worn. Half swollen eyes stare, Stare into the sleepless night. I have so much to do, So much to do. I've already pulled one all nighter, Can I bare another. Deadline coming up, Many of these it seems. Oh, can I survive, Can I just hold on. Tired fingers dance through the night, Into darkness till dawn. Thoughts become nervous wrecked, More so as the days go by. One thing I can say for sure, Thank heaven for coffee…

Happy Love and Love Sick by BitterCoast, literature

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Happy Love and Love Sick

Happy Love I'm in love with you, not another, For I easily get lost in those deep eyes. It's funny how my thoughts become tangled, And my words don't make since when I see you smile. I love that you're there to share my feelings, And care about my future goals. You're not afraid to be yourself, While accepting me for who I am. Even when I just feel like talking, You'll listen without saying a word. You hold my hand between hugs, And lend a shoulder when I'm tired. I never thought I could find someone like you, Behind my eyes, a fire is burning. Love Sick I never thought about it, the way I feel, I never thought about it, so s

Shivering Heart by BitterCoast, literature

Unsure Eyes by BitterCoast, literature

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Unsure Eyes

Many thoughts I have, Racing circles in my head. Why must I produce such conflict, Between my stubborn mind and searching heart. It's hard to be myself, Cause I try to be so perfect. I hate it so, That I can't let loose. To be my silly self, The way I am alone. Do I dare, for fine I may seem, To say to your smiling face. No, I can't in my unsure eyes, Say how much I care for you. Do you notice how I fidget, Fumbling my words into a nervous grin. I am no longer in control, For you influence my aching feelings. You cause me to smile more, Even when I suffer so. For now I'll just stay, And talk awhile. Listening to your soo

Scar of Mine by BitterCoast, literature

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Scar of Mine

Fingers wrapped around my heart, Slowly drawing them together. Can't you see, your painful grasp, Of what I once thought mine. But no, you can't, You can't look past yourself. You've taken my heart, With your nails sharp. Gashing my hearts skin, You sink them in. Thirsty blood trickles out, Making ground across my side. Harder you squeeze, Driving them deeper, deeper. My life's fluid runs in haste, Over your hands dug deep. Now firmly latched is your grip, And you pull, oh so gently. Tearing flesh, You rip my heart. Yes my lonely heart, You ripped it out.

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The Eye-Release by jahg, literature

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The Eye-Release

I am: trying to pierce my eye which wants its darkest brown retreat unchallenged: but, no, I won't allow a further escape from my intensified desire. : struggling to climb inside the eye that I may see behind the lens what lies and lurks in colour and depth unchallenged: I will get in. : wondering if I prise back the eye what can I hope to echo through the sultry chamber: to a deeper heart unchallenged: but door do not bar. : shattering the glass of the eye which strains to be away but begs no distance: unchallenged: the burden clouds over the retina. : hoping to blur the eye to visionless stare at my impa

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Fateful Temper by BitterCoast, literature

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Fateful Temper

Enraged and thirst driven, Eyes scream impatients. Angered feelings lurking inside, Uncontrolled and unable to cope. Sharp pains pierce my heart, As I look upon my shattered life. Demanding thoughts slowly crept in, Rejected by hopeful dreams. Shameful I could be, But not me, I will not. Could you have loved as much, He sure didn't seem to, or try. My heart used to skip a beat, Now it just sinks. Trapped with feelings of love & hate, You see they can't live together. Live together no, Not in the same torn soul.

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Current Residence: At the corner of a circle
Favourite genre of music: Depends on my mood...
Favourite style of art: Scenery|Macabre/ Horror|Photo Manipulation
Operating System: COFFEE!
Wallpaper of choice: The one I have on right now
Skin of choice: Pale, but tan would be nice...
Favourite cartoon character: Spongebob|Grim
Personal Quote: Think Twice Before You Know Me

Favourite Movies

Planet of the Apes|LotR|Star Wars

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Plus One|Rebecca St. James|Josh Groban

Favourite Writers

Edgar Allen Poe|Steven King

Favourite Games

Creating Chaos & Frustration

Favourite Gaming Platform

PC|PS2

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My Curious Eyes & Searching Soul

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Snowboarding|Alto Saxophone|Fitness|Music

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BitterCoast

Nov 11, 2006

I am still alive.

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Yes, it's been over a year since I've looked at this web site... wow talk about being busy. I am now a junior here at Walla Walla College working on a four year degree in Nursing. We just finished mid-terms and I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving break! I am still working at the college as a campus security officer, and taking Karate lessons (going for purple belt now). It'll be me and my boyfriend's two year anniversary in January. Oh and this last summer I was a Wild land firefighter, which was sooo awesome :D. Man I haven't written a poem in forever. And ironically that happen around when I started dating and plus I feel like I

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BitterCoast

Sep 9, 2005

Devious Journal Entry

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Hey everyone, sorry it's been so long. I've been hella' busy this summer, and I go back to college in two weeks. I hope your summers have been awesome, and that you weren't just working, lol. I miss commenting on you guys, and MAN I haven't written a poem in forever. I should get on that huh, lol. Talk to you later.

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BitterCoast

Nov 30, 2004

Devious Journal Entry

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Well these next two weeks are finals...I don't do much besides study, go to classes, eat, & sleep. Is it just me or does it seem like time goes by too fast. I think we need 48 days, hehe now wouldn't that be interesting...Oh and procrastinating isn't worth it. It just leads to sleepless nights of last minute cramming & studying. Well I hope you guys had a great Thanksgiving! How was yours? Mine was great, cuz it was nice to see my family again. Lol, I hadn't seen them since I've left for college, so yeah it was nice. Oh hey, have any of you seen alexander? If so, what did you think of it? I haven't seen it, but I've heard it got some pretty